I'm super into black/dark skinned women but I'd never say it out loud

I don't have a strict racial preference but if I were to be able to choose to marry anybody it'd be a dark skinned nerdy girl of some kind of East or West African descent. I'm of South Asian descent from America on the fairer end of the skin spectrum and it's assumed we all want a lighter skinned partner but I don't know. I find darker skin to have a lot more warmth and the idea of cuddling up against it makes me feel really... warm inside.

I'd never say this in real life cause it sounds weird and fetishistic and I'd rather have my partner feel valued for who they are uniquely as opposed to their ethnic group, but yeah I don't know, I just had to post this because my friend called me crazy because I had a crush on this woman who was black (she was also extremely conventionally attractive and had a really unique alternative sense of style). And he was black too. So like, I'm tired of that.