Someone please tell me it gets better

Hi all, just need to vent.

I’m currently 12+4 with a very much wanted first baby that we had to go through a lot to get here (2 mc, stimulations and IUI).

Nausea and vomiting started pretty bad around 6 weeks, and at 8 weeks I was hospitalized for 3 days due to dehydration from not being able to hold anything down.

I’ve been prescribed xonvea which helped a bit, and I was looking forward to second tri because everyone says it gets better. But the last week has been a huge backslide and I was hospitalized again, just one day. The doctor switched me to cariban and although the vomiting has subsided I’m still feeling terrible and can barely leave the couch.

It’s getting to the point where I’m starting to feel depressed. Between the nausea, vomiting, constipation, hemorrhoids, and fatigue I just haven’t felt like myself for what feels like forever now.

Just looking for some encouragement as I’m feeling hopeless. Thanks in advance