Not going to give up just because things are hard

Day 8 over here. Smoked daily since 14, tried quitting multiple times. Decided to stop at the hardest time of my life and I want to smoke today, I work at a dispensary so I could easily being surrounded by temptations.

But I won't. Thinking about some of the posts on here (reasons why to quit post and taking a picture of yourself stoned post specifically) and deciding it won't change anything. I'm just going to not. I don't fucking care about pain and suffering, it is what it is. I'll be fine, smoking will just exacerbate the problems and put me back into the hole.