I fucking hate going to a specialized high school

Like okay bro I know the acceptance rate is 3% for some of these schools and how they're the highest funded schools in New York but they fucking suck bro. I'm being deprived of a healthy childhood man all I wanna do is live like a normal teenager, that's the only thing I wanna do. I'm being forced to grow up and pretend like I'm already in college. Most of my friends suck, most of them are assholes and are so fucking competitive and jealous for no reason like suck my dick bro. I miss going to a normal middle school with normal people. I miss not being pressured to decide a career when I'm only 14 and being forced to go to some shitty school in the Bronx 1.5 hours away. Fuck this place and its prestigiousness, all these stupid fuck nerd ass friends I have suck and speech and debate sucks. I'm only doing it for college but this shit sucks ass so hard like whoever invented congressional debate can burn in hell and all of my teachers fucking suck. Like bro you get paid to teach not speed run low effort slides and assign useless packets I fucking hate everything. What's the point of going to a good school when you can't even like a normal life and you're expected to grow up at 14? Fml 🤦‍♂️