You're here but you're not

Before I met you, I wasn't really fond of cats. Before I met you, I wasn't a big fan of this certain music genre. Before I met you, I wasn't aware of those indie movies. Before I met you, I wasn't a fan of travelling. Before I met you, I wasn't excited in making plans or trips. Before I met you, I wasn't a fan of taking photos of places.

But after meeting you, a lot has changed. You changed me. You made me like things I never knew I liked. You expanded my perspective on things.

But now that you're gone from my life, all that's left are the things you made me feel.

After meeting you, whenever I see cats, I remember how we wanted to take care of cats when we live together. After meeting you, when I listen to the songs you recommended, I think of you and associate the lyrics to you. After meeting you, I now look for new movies that you might like to watch. After meeting you, I am always excited in going to a new place because it's with you. After meeting you, I am always thinking of surprising you with something. After meeting you, I now take photos of the things and places I would have loved for you to see.

After meeting you, all that's left are fragments of you in my life. Everywhere I go and everything that I do, all I see is you.

You're here but you aren't. At it kills me. It kills me to have fallen in love with those things but I can't share them with you anymore.

I'll treasure these memories in my heart as I try to create new ones, the sad part is, you're no longer here to be part of it.

Wherever you are, know that I will always think of you and love you from afar, even if you don't know anymore.

I don't even know if I'll grow tired of thinking about you because I don't want to have anything or anyone else after you.

It's just you.