My ex-wife cheated on me with her current boyfriend. Last week she cheated on him with me. Should I feel bad about that?

A few years ago my now ex wife cheated on me with a guy she worked with. She confessed and told me that she thought she was in love with him. Now, she said she still loved me but this guy made her special and they had so much fun together and she didn’t know what to do.

I made the choice easy for her and told her we were through. Fast forward a few years and she is living with the guy now but the shine has worn off. Turns out what she thought was love was just the thrill of someone new. So she comes over last week and tells me they don’t get along very well, that he’s not me and he doesn’t know her like I do. She says she made a big mistake, doesn’t know what she was thinking. I tell her that she’s nuts if she thinks I’m going to get back together with her after she cheated on me. But then starts rubbing me.

I don’t stop her and we end up having sex. It was really good too, I’ve never seen her like that before. After it’s over she asks me what we should do now. I tell that this doesn’t mean we are back together. She’s pissed but we end up doing it the next day and it’s been going on all week.

Should I feel bad about this? Her boyfriend knew she was married and still slept with her. But the guy called multiple times when we’re together this past week and she says he’s suspicious. If I tell her that I’m open to getting back together she says she will tell him and leave immediately. I don’t want that but I don’t want to stop seeing her either. Sadly I still love her even thought I kind of hate her if that make sense.