When will it be my turn?

I look around me. I found people, people changing. People that I don't talk to anymore advancing in all aspects. 'Soon it'll be your turn, believe me, things are gonna get better' I've been like this for years now, is it going to be my turn sometime soon?

I just give a fuck about everything that I'm leading my life to a non-sense spiral. Fr, there's happening a lot of weird shit.

I want to leave this fucked up place but I can't leave my mom with an alcoholic asshole. And I think that's the only thing I don't give a fuck about.