Need Insight

I feel so crazy because sometimes the stuff I experience seem to not make much sense to people. I try my hardest to say and describe what I mean but people just look at me with nothing to say. I want to know if anyone else here experiences this or is just something else going on. There is a little girl inside of me. I don’t mean I’m trying to heal my inner child but literally a little girl. I’m 23 now and I think she’s been here since I was maybe 18/19. I really don’t remember but it’s been a few years. It feels like everyday she gets stronger and stronger. Meaning she comes out more when I don’t want her to.

She doesn’t talk and I don’t hear her voice but I k ow what she needs and what’s wrong. I feel her so intensely to the point where when she’s present I can’t do normal things. It’s like I’m paralyzed in fear and paranoia. She’s about 6 years old. And I think k she is an image of me but not necessarily me. Of that makes any sense. I don’t sound much different when I’m talking g and she’s present but my brain sort of turns into a little kid. Sometimes as well I feel like my body language is one of a deeply frightened child. The only thing I have ever found online that sounds close to what I’m saying is maybe age regression/having a little. But I see mostly sexual things. When she comes up I don’t want anything to do with sex. Nothing at all. It also feels really wrong if I were to refer to her as myself bc she isn’t me entirely. I feel so crazy saying this. I can’t ever calm her down and I get so mad and I say mean things about her. Idk what to do with her because it’s so much for me