Being told that it is just hormones

I am a diagnosed teenager with SzPD, so still very young. I’m not sure if this is common but it has been happening to me, especially from one of my therapists.

During one of our sessions, I brought up myself feeling uncomfortable with friendships and (platonic) intimacy. I told her about how every day felt the same to me in general. Adding to that, when the people around me speak about their troubles, I almost want to walk away. I feel uncomfortable or almost repulsed when I listen, I acknowledge their struggles but I can’t shake off the feeling of burden.

She responded to this by asking me how I would feel if somebody was not listening to me when I was ranting. I replied that I would be alright with that as nobody is obligated to comfort another person, but it would be nice if they did listen to me.

She said I was rude/selfish for not wanting to listen to others, when I want them to listen to me. The part that upset me was when she said I only did not want friends due to my hormones, as I am still in a developmental stage and going through puberty. She quoted that in order to make friends, I would have to be less of myself (e.g. 25% me at first impression) in order to be accepted.

I know being a teenager does not make my well-being less valid or real, yet I can’t help but feel a bit upset or heavy when people suggest I’ve been misdiagnosed due to my age, or the like. My therapist was the first, and after my diagnosis I feel as though more people that I do not know tell me that my behavior/thoughts towards others are due to my hormones, and that I might be misdiagnosed. I want to ignore it but I’m afraid.

As a child, I’ve always had a distaste for friendships or closeness of any kind with virtually anybody. When asked about the best or worst moments of my life, I never had an idea because events almost always felt the same, or similar (typically with undertones of disgust). I’ve felt like an observer in the world for most of my life. I relate to having SzPD, and being able to have a community with people who might relate to that as well, or want to understand the thought process makes me feel understood - but being young makes it feel difficult to feel valid.

I’m aware SzPD is rare to have, but I don’t think I’ve been misdiagnosed. With people mentioning my age, I can’t help but feel anxious with the thought that I might have been.

I wonder if other schizoids might relate to this as well, or have had similar experiences of invalidation.