In desperate need of last minute help
So I've just learnt that in my induction week in 3 weeks time I will be presenting, doing role plays, and I need to prepare an elevator pitch (I did an induction week last year for the same company and I saw people standing in a circle and 1 at a time going in the middle and speaking - if I have to do that with an elevator pitch I may die).
My last experience with 'presenting' was about 9 months ago in university where the teacher said we would need to read out our answers to the class in our groups (at the time I thought it was just from our tables whilst sat down and yet..) I got so nervous as soon as she said it that my heart was racing and my hands kept shaking so I left the class and never went back.
If that's how I reacted when I thought I'd just read to a class of about 12 from my seat how will I react when I need to stand infront of about 40 people and present/role play?
Furthermore, i was with just 2 friends and I really wanted to play this articulate game where you have to describe a word without using the word and have people guess it. However, when it got to me I got really nervous and red for some reason eventhough it was only 2 friends, so I had to say some random shit then I got up and went to the bathroom.
Outside of having the attention be all on me I'm actually confident and a very outgoing person, it's just when everyone's eyes are on me I crumble. And because I'm someone that goes red I get more and more nervous.
I have got myself propanolol to try which I haven't used before so I'm praying that helps.
Why is it that I'm fighting so many demons when it comes to presenting? I keep telling myself I'm literally just talking in my native tongue but it doesn't help I still feel nervous.
Will propanolol help all my symptoms is it as miraculous as I'm hearing (if the answer is no I'd rather you not say it so I can at least have placebo)
Is there anything else I could take during the week that could just mellow me out so I'm less stressed.
If I end up having to give a 60 second elevator pitch infront of 40 people what do I even do if I choke up and get too nervous to even speak?