to my chichi🍢,

these past few days became hard for me, i dreamed of u last night and i saw a lot of pictures of u smiling and successful. each night before i close my eyes, i always think of you and the thought of what could have been if that “thing” didn’t happen. chi, it’s been 3 fvcking years, and i’m still healing, crying, questioning my worth. how? how to forget u the way u easily forgot me? i hate it, i feel pathetic. i really gained a trauma because of what happened to us. a disaster indeed. i know you are happy and successful now and i’m begging God to heal my heart. chi, you are the cut that always bleeds.

sincerely, 🍦