Fell for a guy, confused.
So 27 M here. Never been in any relation before, but have been heartbroken twice badly in the past, basically unrequited and bro/ friendzoned. After which, I had basically cut off all sorts of romantic feelings and focused solely on my career. Have however met guys on various apps to hookup from time to time, but never sought anything serious after myast heartbreak.
Cut to the latter half of last year, was chatting with this guy and vibed decently but somehow despite my best attempts, I legit felt very drawn to him. I kinda felt it may be me being in the mood of something and my mind would change after we meet. But NO! If nothing else, I literally fell for him much harder after we met, albeit it was our first time meeting after like 3-4 months of chatting, and it was only gonna be a hookup. I'm just confused right now. I know very well that I don't open up to or be vulnerable with or trust people easily, but I've unknowingly told him a lot of stuff that I generally don't, been vulnerable to him without even realising.
I may have caught feelings for him, despite me thinking that I had exterminated all the proverbial butterflies in my stomach. I dunno what to do. I'm planning to cook some stuff for him and handover tomorrow as a genuinely friendly gesture, so not meeting properly. Should I confess to him when we meet tomorrow, or should I keep it in when we meet again properly. Should I drop him a text sometime. I'm utterly confused. I was thinking of giving a written letter while handing him the food but what if that's too much for him, especially after having met just once, which was also mainly to hookup. Ugh...
Update 1- He kinda had figured out and we had a really long discussion. I kinda realised that I've just had shit luck with guys in general, so kinda got infatuated with being treated well for a change. We have a lot in common so currently have decided to hang out in general while keeping hookups off the table for a short while. We'll perhaps pick up hooking up n all once I deal with my stuff. Thanks peeps.