wasup my g

ya boi gooner marking attendance. this is gonna be a long read but stay with me now. Since we got rid of the case I have something to share.

you know I make a lot of fun commenting the worst thing on a whole-some post or writing fazul stuff. but even a skibidi level 10 gyat like me can lose hope sometimes..

being serious now what I wanted to say was nothing like what others say. They tell you to pray do dua for whatever you are going through what I see most people not realise is. You pray, You make dua, You do all the goodies, You sin, You repent but you don’t really really believe that your duas will come true. That you’re “ not worthy “ or “ Sin too much “ for your duas to really be accepted.

I am a sinner like you guys I really am. I do pray 5 times and never miss it but I in the end im still a sinner. What I want you to know is if you do not believe your duas have worth you are very much deeply wrong and I believe you should ask for forgiveness.

I will tell you a very fascinating story of mine. I never was a fond of cars. we sold a car and went out to buy a better one for me. The choice was mine but the end decision was of my father. those days my imaan was quite low even though I was praying I felt it clearly. I made a dua in Tahajjud to have my favourite car. This hunt of cars brought out the early days of car excitement of mine and we found a car in budget that I wanted to own all my life.( these aren’t stories im making up ) Call it car A, Had the papers ready and everything the last thing left was for my father to go and grab it.

Went home excited thinking “ wow my duas get accepted so easily “ and what happened was I did not get the car my father did not bring it and next day I was super sad. with imaan already low I started to have those thoughts “ do my duas really get accepted? “ and really was demotivated by that.

next day my father asks me about cars again and I say “ Apki marzi hai ap jonsa lete hain mai khush hun bs aana jaana hi krna hai “ and went on with my routine. Office sy ghar wapis aya tou ghar pe Car B ayi khari.

Now i was never fond of car b mai dono mai hi nahi betha tha kabhi. but when I sat in it and drove it. Came out to be way wayy better than my expectations and I again became happy thinking I was wrong to think that my duas don’t get accepted.

Doesn’t end there, 2 days later the same exact model the same exact car I always wanted the same one i prayed for came home. It was owned by my father’s friend, he took my fathers car for shaadi and left his own. this was the exact car I wanted 1 to 1 the car A i was looking for and did not get before.

So out of curiosity i said okay ill give my car b to my father and ill try the other car ( my favourite). it was with us for 3 days in which after one day of driving it for the first time ever, I gave the keys back to my father because I did not enjoy it. The same exact car I always wanted was now in my garage with the car I actually got. I went out for a walk or garage sy guzra and I thought. What kind of co incidence can this be? I mean how does the exact car I wanted end up here right after I got a diff one??

And then it hit me. Hit me so hard I broke down. standing right in front of me was a car I always wanted to buy and “ what i thought “ was my dream car and right beside was standing gracefully, a car Allah chose out of his love for me, My consciousness read out these words in my head “ And they plan, and Allah plans, And Allah is the best of planners” That day I will not forget ever.

Some days after that i did another dua in tahajjud for a cat. I always wanted to have a cat all my life, My parents never let me have one. So as I went off tahajjud knowing Allah will accept my dua no matter what happens went to sleep with a smile.

Few days go buy and my mother surprises me by gifting a cat. Couldn’t believe it couldn’t be more grateful but of course a human at the end of the day we can make mistakes. I never had such a strong emotional connection with anything or anyone that I had for that cat. A gift from Allah how precious can you be I wouldn’t dare pass my time with anyone else but that beautiful gift of God.

One day I come home and my mother tells me she left that cat back at the shop because it annoyed her. Imagine what got into me after getting told such a precious gift was taken away from me. Couldn’t sleep two days.

Third day. The usual go to the park thinking ah another day another disappointment. After my run I sit down to relax a bit. I see 5 cats coming towards me all beautiful just started loving like crazy. I was like ok that’s normal but wow.

Next day go to the office, ab office mai a billi with such beautiful eyes and just came and sat right beside my laptop on which I was working. I was left in shock, what is going on?? I left my laptop and I started to pass my time with the cat.

I come home. Sleep wakeup at 5 am Prayed Fajr and went to kitchen to make my coffee. Heard a noise, Now no one’s awake this time why could this be. I ignored and went about making my coffee. Heard a second time and looked to my left, A cat so beautiful just standing there looking at me. I couldn’t process what’s going on i just woke up and saw a white beautiful cat staring at me in a house that’s fully locked and no way for a cat to come in at 5 in the morning???

I fed that cat with milk. and just sat there spending time with it for 2 hours like I was some sort of child who couldn’t believe what’s going on.

To this day that cat comes and plays with me. To this day everywhere I go I find myself in a situation where a cat comes to spend time with me. the same cat that came to me at 5 am sits in my mothers lap while she spends all her day with her.. The same mother who always hated cats now doesn’t wanna stay away??

I realised many times but never felt to sit and think about how many times my duas have been rejected? I never. had. a. dua. rejected. ever. All of my duas were accepted not just accepted in such beautiful ways that whenever I think about it I can’t control myself from breaking down.

I have built an ego a belief so strong after all of this that I don’t need anyone’s attention or validation. A belief so strong this smile never goes away. I wish the same for all of you please the best thing you can do is to turn back to the real test. I may joke around a lot but trust me hold that belief tight and you will never look back.