I messed up

I’ve been going through ivf for a year now. I’ve done 3 retrievals with no end in sight. I know it’s vain but I hate how it’s changed my appearance. I’ve gained weight and my face just looks tired.

I decided to go to a plastic surgeon for some filler. My RE said “it should be fine” and the plastic surgeon assured me it would be safe since it’s calcium based, but now I am spiraling. What if the filler somehow hurts my eggs or a potential baby as it’s dissolving in my system over the next 12 months?

Has anyone else gone through something similar? I feel like I’m spiraling when I was just trying to feel better.

ETA: Thank you so much everyone for your kind, supportive and helpful comments. It truly has changed how I’m feeling. I appreciate it and I hope this thread is helpful down the line to people who may be anxious like me.