Tear on vagina that won’t heal

I ended up tearing at 6 o’clock on my vagina between my bum and my vagina just on the opening through rough s*x. It’s been a year and a half and it still hasn’t healed.

I have taken 6 months apart from sx even longer and just done other things but this is beyond a joke. After 6 months it’s re opened. I have been placed on the list to see a specialist however I want this to heal fast so I can have a normal sx life.

I’m wearing loose under wear, sleeping with pants off to air it out. I’ve bought a soothing cream and and after labour cream that’s suppose to support the healing of a tear and it’s still there. It isn’t as deep as the cut was so that means there slight progress but did anyone else find anything that helped speed the healing process up?

I’ve read that oestrogen cream has been provided to those who had this problem but I can’t get this online and the waiting list is very long.

I need advice