need motivation (anyone up to become accountability buddies?)

19F, i sometimes feel im not good enough ki kuch bhi badhiya ukhaad paau life mei…my parents have not held back whenever it comes to me needing or wanting money and now i feel this weird guilt ki mai khud kuch nahi kar paungi…i desperately need motivation…i want to be ambitious but i just dont feel it inside me bcs i just feel so defeated by myself. my social life is also dead bcs of recent happenings and i just dont feel enough to seek help. need someone to reassure me