Schroedinger's dysphoria?

(I KNOW that this is not how you properly use this term i just liked the sound of it) does anyone elses dysphoria just disappear when you don't think about it? i think I'm pretty good at denial and so if i decide to ignore the fact that i am trans my dysphoria just doesn't let itself known, it only intensifies when i start thinking about my identity more; it kinda stops me from begining my transition, because im scared that im making this whole thing up, if i can just ignore it then it can't be real right? i think i just wanna hear your stories (especially from people who didn't realise they were trans until their late teens or later)