am i just that fucking easy to ignore?

every time i message in a group chat i get fucking ignored. not kidding. every single time. this is one of the most stressful, most frustrating things that *regularly* happens to me. most times im too embarrassed and i immediately run to forget what happened, but it's times like this where i've reached my limit and im done. im pissed. im fucking depressed over this shit.

we have a school christmas party to plan and i am in charge of my class's presentation for this event. this presentation is *graded* so naturally i want this to be good. we have less than one fucking week to prepare for this and it kills me that we have done so little progress, but i legit cannot give a lot of preparation without consulting this group of students responsible for this entire event beforehand, since they have authority over me.

im part of their group chat for this event bc of my responsibility ^ as mentioned. i message the chat asking for approval for a plan i made for the presentation. but what do i get? i get left on read. left on seen. some were nice enough to leave me with a stupid like react. did i ask for your fucking likes? no, i specifically said i needed your approval. i needed you to tell me "yes" or "no" to the plan i made. is that too fucking difficult to understand?

i always get sick from anxiety from chatting in group chats because of this fucking shit. i know i should be used to being ignored by now, since this fucking happens to me way too fucking much. but ffs, im not doing all this for me, im doing this for my class's *grades*. at least say something for my class if you wont for me.

i dont know if its just cuz i never say the right things, or if everyone genuinely does not like me, but fucking christ why do people never respond to me in group chats? why the hell do you ignore me?