Saying Goodbye

In 1 hour I have to say goodbye to my baby kitty. She is 19 years old, I've had her since I was a teenager, my son's known her his entire life.

My son and I went to the family cabin for the weekend and I got word from the person feeding my girl that she wasn't reallg eating. By the time we got home yesterday she had deteriorated a lot. If I'd know it was this bad I'd have been home immediately.

She can't walk, won't eat or drink. I've made an appointment for her to be put to sleep, and I'm giving her all the love in the world. However, I'm not ready to say goodbye. My heart is breaking right now as I lay with her on my chest, knowing that in about an hour she will be gone.

I just needed to vent. RIP Emily, I will forever love you.