Mobility Aid Insecurity

I struggle a lot to use my mobility aids, especially when I need them due to the fact that I don’t feel that I look “disabled enough“ to use them.

My family also doesn’t see the reality of the pain that I go through when I don’t use them because I “push through the pain.” I know I need to start using them a lot more because my pain scale has been rising more and more throughout the last few weeks, but I am so embarrassed by being young and having to use either a cane or wheelchair just to get by.

Even, on my really bad days, I have to use the handicap bathroom in public places just to use the handle to get up. But I can’t get over the embarrassment I feel of self shame.