Wrote this poem after finding out about the affair

As our relationship continues to flow Ive seen something in your eyes fade. I think back on the life we made.

Some of it was good, some happy, some of it sad. All the laughter, the good times, shortcomings, not all of it bad

Something about us has changed lately, I don’t know exactly how. The laughter that used to fill our home is gone now.

Replaced with quiet nights together not saying much. Some nights come and go without even a touch.

One day you come to me and I hear the words every spouse fears. Sit down I have something I’ve been needing to say you speak through tears

Heart pounding, a shot of adrenaline hits. My legs go numb and a surge in my chest

Pounding and static in my ears as I hear you tell me of the affair. My head underwater and needing for air

The details of weakness and naivety and about the person who took all that I held dear. As my vision returns and I can now see clear

All the signs I had missed since it had its start. The secrecy, the outbursts, the lack of eating, why I’ve felt so apart.

I now know why there has been an absence of laughter. I know why our joyous home has been so silent. My timeline is now divided into before and after.

Work is just as demanding and stressful as before but I’m missing my drive. I’m doing everything in my power just trying to survive.

As I lay awake in bed another sleepless night. I hear a sound that doesn’t sound quite right.

I can hear your smile while you giggle in your sleep. I feel a pain in my heart that cuts me deep. What cruel joke is being played on me?

While I lay to your side I hear the sounds that I crave. The joy and laughter you can only find in your dreams.

I wish I could see your smile in the darkness. As I lay there the sounds of bliss ceases. There I lay with my heart broken in pieces.