I’m going to drink again.

Life has become so absolutely miserable. There is no recovering from all the mistakes I’ve made. I’m in so much pain emotionally. I spend every sober day laying in bed on my phone. My face is covered in acne again. I’m in credit card debt with a score barely above 500. I’m a burden to every single person in my life. I look in the mirror and see how ugly I am. I’m so fucking miserable. I have two years. I won’t have two years for very much longer. Idk why I’m writing this. I just feel so absolutely alone.