I am scared to start my sober journey and struggling to wrap my head around forever but I don't have a choice.

I have come to terms with a lot of things lately. I learned that I am a drinker. I drink when I am anxious, I drink when I want to sleep. I drink when I am stressed. I drink because a "nice" glass of wine pairs well with my meal. I am drinking everyday and my husband hates me for it. I tried not drinking and I couldn't. I was anxious when I didn't drink even for a few hours, felt sick, couldn't sleep if I didn't drink before bed.

My husband told me I have a choice between stopping or divorce. He thinks I am an alcoholic. I think I use drinking as a coping mechanism. He wants me to go to do a medical detox then rehab and then not drink. I don't think I can. My drinking is circumstantial, I know that. I know that insomnia and anxiety are at the root cause and I hope that once I fix those I can drink more moderately but he's adamant that that's not the case.

Those who drank everyday but weren't drunk all the time and wouldn't label themselves alcoholic because there drinking was circumstantial, how did you cope with forever or did you feel it didn't apply to you?