Feel happy when connected with the Divine (God, Source, Creator, etc.)

doesn't it feel so much happier when one is just thinking about God. Sometimes i just distance myself from this world and all the noise, and just concentrate on God. either chanting his names or just thinking about his presence. life feels sm better, and i feel more present. then once i step back into the real world, i need to focus on school, work, people, and i start to feel stressed and controlled by others. i come from a controlling family and is always picked on and yelled at for just wanting to be by myself and do things spiritual around them. i have only one friend and she is the one i mostly feel related to. but nothing feels as happy, and peaceful as when we are just focusing on Source, our Creator. im just playing soft music rn while im writing this and i love this peace and calm more than the everyday hustle life. how do people balance their school, work, and life balance and also stay in this peaceful, calm state at all times? im so sensitive and cry alot when someone raises their voice or doesnt allow me to just do my own thing, like my family always controlling me and everything i indulge in. i just want to stay in this few minutes of peace forever than go back to the hustle life, because it always brings the worst out of me. i either cry, or argue with someone which i honestly dont enjoy doing.