I legitimately can't stand the thought of being alive

Everytime I'm present I just feel I'm going crazy I can't stand it I can't be fucking alive what the actual fuck I'm here I'm truly here I'm really a human living a life how can that be what the fucking hell i'm really here I'm really experiencing something right now it's not imagination it's not an illusion I'm here I'm fucking here I can't believe it how do I cope pls help