Grieving my old life

I am a C4 incomplete quadriplegic. I’m not sure. I’m in the right place. I cannot walk. I have no movement in my legs and I have curled fingers that makes it difficult to do anything with my hands. I am 3 1/2 years in from my injury. I’m currently in a nursing home. I was hoping to go to an apartment or assisted living to get more independence to get back out into the world however it looks like that’s not going to be realistic. I can’t handle those levels of independence. I need so much help. I Hoyer lift out of bed. I need help with dressing. I need help with everything that I do so I can’t imagine being able to go out into the world by myself Sadly it looks like I’ll either go to another nursing home or stay here. I’m devastated. This is what my life has become. I used to have a wonderful life so much freedom. I was even looking forward to retirement .Now everything is whittled down to a bed and a wheelchair. II I do go to another nursing home, maybe in an area that I could get out into a town, but then somebody would have to go with me and that’s hard to find people to do that. I’m sure you get the gist of what I’m saying. I’m just devastated that I’m boxed into this. I’m so severely injured. I can’t find any other way. In fact I may not do it at all. Any feedback you may have is welcome. In this community. I feel there is not enough talk about the grieving process so I’m putting it out there. Please help me. I feel my life is over.