What's the point to life

I'm a 19M and became a c1/c2 complete almost a year ago. I just moved into my sisters house and she (and my caregivers) take care of me 24/7.

My life is WAY different than I thought it would be. I was supposed to be going to my dream school and living the college life. Now, I'm a fucking vegetable. I'm watching my friends all having fun at college and living life. I feel like I'm missing out on everything.

It's freaking embarrassing and just frustrating having no independence. I can't do anything really. Can't breathe on my own, use the toilet, make food, play games, have a job, can't jack off and sex is out of the question, or anything. I don't think I can keep going like this for the rest of my life. Everyone pities me. I pity me. Fuck this