I was delulu guys
I didn't know what to put for the title, but basically my friend knew I had the hots for him for ages and idk if he still does, but he used to at least. We went and nicked some alcohol and then went to where his crush of, I think, two years was and basically agreed if his crush breaks up with his girlfriend, then they'll (my crush and his crush) will get together, which apparently makes me feel like crap when I thought I could just not think about it. It might be partly (majorly) due to the alcohol in me rn but it just pisses me off that I basically said over and over that I loved this guy and he then goes to his long-time crush that he's gonna get with him eventually. It shouldn't be a big deal when we weren't even together in the first place but it is for some reason. I genuinely don't know what love is but to me it makes me wanna spend time with someone night and day and when I'm not with them I feel like nothing so maybe I don't love him and just wanna be a friend with benefits but idfk. I need a boyfriend who'll love me like you see in fairy tales but they don't exist so fuck it l'll just settle for selling my body which no one wants because I’m built like a hippo (it doesn't help that I have a bottle of wine and a pack of custard creams next to me) I'm British if you couldn't tell. Anyways Adios guys I'm gonna get fat and drunk less
I didn't know what to put for the title, but basically my friend knew I had the hots for him for ages and idk if he still does, but he used to at least. We went and nicked some alcohol and then went to where his crush of, I think, two years was and basically agreed if his crush breaks up with his girlfriend, then they'll (my crush and his crush) will get together, which apparently makes me feel like crap when I thought I could just not think about it. It might be partly (majorly) due to the alcohol in me rn but it just pisses me off that I basically said over and over that I loved this guy and he then goes to his long-time crush that he's gonna get with him eventually. It shouldn't be a big deal when we weren't even together in the first place but it is for some reason. I genuinely don't know what love is but to me it makes me wanna spend time with someone night and day and when I'm not with them I feel like nothing so maybe I don't love him and just wanna be a friend with benefits but idfk. I need a boyfriend who'll love me like you see in fairy tales but they don't exist so fuck it l'll just settle for selling my body which no one wants because I’m built like a hippo (it doesn't help that I have a bottle of wine and a pack of custard creams next to me) I'm British if you couldn't tell. Anyways Adios guys I'm gonna get fat and drunk less