Feeling a little silly ^_^
So basically i can’t live without attention. Anytime someone doesn’t talk to me i feel worthless and i feel like everyone hates me. Today my friend didn’t hang out with me in the break because he hang out with his other friends. Or yesterday he was mad and he treated me bad. He doesn’t hate me (i think and hope cause he is the last person i have left :3). But it still felt bad and i had some silly thoughts. And anytime i post something and it doesn’t get attention and it doesn’t get reaction, i have a whole meltdown because that means people don’t like me. I have been overlooked my whole life and i haven’t done been ignored by everyone. I just want to be free. I want people to listen to me. To watch me. To like me. I want to speak freely without people talking over me. I AM SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE LOOKING DOWN ON ME. I even considered doing sexual things for attention even if it is the wrong attention. I am at that point where I consider posting my body just to get comments and attention. I can’t do this shit no more.
As you can see i got a little worked up. Thank you for reading.
So basically i can’t live without attention. Anytime someone doesn’t talk to me i feel worthless and i feel like everyone hates me. Today my friend didn’t hang out with me in the break because he hang out with his other friends. Or yesterday he was mad and he treated me bad. He doesn’t hate me (i think and hope cause he is the last person i have left :3). But it still felt bad and i had some silly thoughts. And anytime i post something and it doesn’t get attention and it doesn’t get reaction, i have a whole meltdown because that means people don’t like me. I have been overlooked my whole life and i haven’t done been ignored by everyone. I just want to be free. I want people to listen to me. To watch me. To like me. I want to speak freely without people talking over me. I AM SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE LOOKING DOWN ON ME. I even considered doing sexual things for attention even if it is the wrong attention. I am at that point where I consider posting my body just to get comments and attention. I can’t do this shit no more.
As you can see i got a little worked up. Thank you for reading.