Rant rant rant

I just wish I was like other people, I suspect I have autism but I'm not going to say I do because I don't wanna self diagnose, but I just can't fucking communicate bruh. I'm talking to someone and I'll have nothing to say, I love talking to people so much but my stupid brain just can come up with words, and even when I can think of something to say or talk about I feel so boring, I have no personality, I have so many friends in real life but it's only because I copy the personality of anyone I like, I don't even do it on purpose it just happens so my mind has something to go off of I guess, I don't know I want to be normal so bad, to be able to meet someone new and just be able to communicate and be able to be unique. I have online friends of whom I love talking with, but our conversationa don't last very long because my stupid brain can't think while I'm talking to someone. Sorry if I've repeated myself at all, i also suck at putting my thoughts in text form.

Just wanted to rant before I go to bed, thanks sillies :3