I like my boyfriends erectile dysfunction and I feel bad about it

For background, me (23F) and my boyfriend (32M) have been dating for around 5 months, we have sex around 2-3 times a week depending on how often we see each other. I would say roughly every 4 times we have sex, he will be unable to get hard enough to penetrate me. Bf is physically active, gets regular check ups for his hormones, and has had this issue checked out in the past by a urologist, he masturbates daily to porn but has no issue getting and maintaining an erection and orgasming outside of the issue. He is also extremely anxious and neurotic. In short, he's fairly sure this is an anxiety issue.

The thing is, I fucking love it. We'll be making out, I'll ask him if he wants to fuck me, he'll get up and try to put it in, then gets a little upset when he can't and asks to cuddle instead. He'll pout a little and snuggle his head into my chest and I'll stroke his hair and tell him it's okay. Occasionally (and this drives me insane) he'll end up rubbing his half-chub against me until he cums while being held by me and I get to hear him whimper as he does so (he's usually not super vocal). This is basically the hottest thing we do together, in my opinion.

The problem is I feel really really bad about this. As much as I hate to admit it, part of the appeal to me is that he's a little upset. Like, if he was fully confident and just offered to give me head or something it wouldn't turn me on at all. I'm also basically getting off on him having anxiety issues, which is fucked up I think.

I suppose my question is, what should I do about this? And does anyone else feel this way? Thanks very much in advance.

EDIT: He does not have a porn addiction, I shouldn't have even brought it up.