Is there a dildo that feels “real”?

Hey guys, I guess it’s pretty embarrassing to be making a whole other account just to ask this-

I am a bisexual woman and I’ve been with my current girlfriend for about a year and I really do think I’ll be spending a long long time with her.

Our sex life is great, and we sort of have a pillow princess/ stone top dynamic which works out best for both of us.

Sometimes though, I think about previous relationships and I remember just how good it felt to go raw with my exes and have something “inserted”. I never had good sex lives with them so it isn’t that I miss being with men, it’s just the physical sensation of how it felt that I hope to find in some kind of toy that I can use when I’m not with her. I’ve tried one of those non-realistic toys that is very soft, but it just feels obvious that it is a silicon toy and not something real.

Do any of you have recommendations for dildos that basically feel real? As weird as it is to say maybe squishy like dicks actually are?

I searched it up in the previous posts but couldn’t find anything like what I’m looking for :,,)

Anyway, thank you for your help!