I am leaving the past behind

25 years of my life i have spent chasing the world. People. Mould myself , lower my respect, neglect myself abandon myself to them. Craving attention. Kept holding onto past. they will regret I did so much for them. Imagining how they re gonna react, maladaptive day dreaming for hours about them checking socials keeping updated all when they didn't give a single fuck. I'll do this and it will make them regret treating me badly. Stayed attached to people who might even have forgotten my name by now. Lol. Today I decide to let go Leave the past behind where it belongs.
Choosing myself today tomorrow and every day. Forgive them and forgive myself for not knowing my value. With no regrets because everything led me to this moment. This is my fucking life. My story. No one can make me feel like I am not good enough. I am hard to love. Good that they left. Why do I want people in my life who only used me, abused me, and left me alone? Made me anxious then blamed me for it. All this time I kept on thinking once they ll say I have changed. I'll win. Fuck you. I have come so far. From trembling anxiety to peace of mind. I choose myself. And my life. I focus on myself and only on myself from the moment onwards. This is my life. MINE. MY OWN. MY PRECIOUS. (Haha)

I have met some amazing people too. Who have only helped me be better just by being. I deserve my own kindness and compassion. I know my flaws. I know what I did wrong.

I cannot change the past. Cannot take back the missed opportunities. Cannot undo my mistakes. But I have learned.

I am not that person who entered the storm. There is peace now. It has passed. And there is quiet. And peace and calm.

Everything always works out.