Wish people would talk about how SH is an ADDICTION

I wish people would acknowledge just how intense addiction to self harm is. It’s literally all I think about 99% of the time. I literally have like withdrawals the longer I go without. When I haven’t hurt in a while I get bitchy and short with everyone. I don’t even want to cut sometimes, I just need to. I am deeply addicted to this shit, and I wish people would acknowledge that. Taking my blades and making me quit cold turkey (while understandable) is insane. I feel like I need it to live, I don’t wanna live without SH. I don’t need to have a bad day to cut, I just need to be awake that day. I put cutting before those around me. If my bsf wants to have a sleepover I will say no because I have plans to cut that night. Anyway I just wish people would be understanding of just how intense the addiction gets.