What should I do?

I’ve been trying to change my pmo habit since July 2024, from July until August I tried Easy Peasy, only read it one time, but the only outcome was that I became anxious and my heart started beating fast which led me to break my streak of 4 weeks. I couldn’t handle reading easy peasy I just felt that it made me feel nervous the more I read it because I had to follow rules like fapping until the end of the book which I wasn’t comfortable with, I. could’ve continued with my life without following that rule but the fact that I didn’t follow it made me nervous and eventually led me to the situation that I mentioned earlier. People kept recommending the freedom model, so I gave it a try. When I first read the first pages for some reason that stress somehow went away because I felt like I finally found the right book, I read the book for a few weeks until somewhere in September, when I suddenly stopped reading it and went full on crazy with pmo for 3 months because I started thinking things that led me to delay reading the rest of the book. So now its January and it’s not easy to resume because sometimes random thoughts come to mind and I feel like I need to act upon them or correct them which becomes tiring, so then I started searching things on the internet and found something called OCD which fits perfectly well with some of the problems that I’ve been having lately. It’s not just that but there’s other non pmo problems that interfere with my way of life. I knew I had some type of anxiety but I never suspected that it could be OCD, I’m still not sure since I haven’t checked if I have it. I really want to change my habit but it’s difficult for my anxious mind, I will probably try to continue reading the book and understand it but there’s a deadline and if things don’t get better by that time I might consider getting real help. Do you guys think it’s a good idea to do that? I’m just wondering, plus I had to get this out because I just want to express my current situation. Thank you.