New MD struggles

Just want to put it out here. Feel free to skip if you don't feel comfortable reading a vent.

You know, as someone na dinirediretso ang studies buong journey sa medicine, sobrang lost ako ngayon. And nakakahiyang aminin sa magulang at pamilya kasi I honestly feel like a child na biglang itinapon sa adult world. Ang dami kong alam as a doctor, pero sobrang clueless ko as a normal person.

What others usually go through after college, tayong mga new MDs ngayon lang nararanasan. And we're already like 26 and above, kaya parang nakakahiyang aminin sa magulang. Or maybe it's just me.

Like, now, I've decided to not go right into residency. Medyo corny pero I want to see more of the world. Gusto ko rin kilalanin yung sarili ko na hindi puro aral at trabaho lang ang alam. Pero syempre, gusto ko rin naman kumita. Nakakahiya at this age na maging pabigat.

Share ko lang though na first-generation doctor ako and I'm from Metro Manila. Definitely not the best combination for someone na gustong mag-moonlight. I don't have much connections as well. I honestly feel so lost.

Pero siguro kinakabahan lang ako. Some form of withdrawal for taking a break after constantly pursuing something for 10 years.

Walang moral story 'tong vent na 'to. But, if ever man na may nakakaranas din ng ganito, just know na di ka nag-iisa. I hope the clouds clear soon enough.