Catholic pagan?

I keep having dreams about Mother Mary, the rosary, etc. Finally last week I was feeling really stressed and scared about the political coup, and while I was out I randomly found myself in a shop that sold rosaries. Since I had dreamed about getting one, on a whim I decided to buy one.

Since then, I've been holding it when I feel scared and a bunch of my housing assistance has started coming through. Previously it had been stalled nearly to a halt, and I was worried I might never have a place to live. But since I started working with the rosary, I've been able to schedule a screening interview for an income-based apartment and was put in contact with a service providing donated furniture (which I would not have been able to afford on my own for a long long time.)

I took a look at r/Catholicism and saw people talking about how "the rosary brings many blessings," and in my experience this seems to be true. But as a pagan, I still only feel comfortable praying to Mother Mary, not Jesus or "the Father." They remind me too much of my abusive Baptist and Pentecostal relatives. But Mother Mary reminds me of the Goddess, she feels very comforting and safe to me. I like studying the story of Jesus, I just don't feel comfortable working with him as a "god." Whereas Mother Mary appears to me as an aspect of the Goddess, the same as Freya, Isis, etc.

I tried looking up whether or not someone could be both pagan and Catholic, and I saw some people apparently use the term "Cathopagan." Is this a thing? I definitely feel like I'm being lead to explore the Catholic traditions, but I wouldn't feel comfortable going to a Catholic church. Not a normal one, anyway.

I've now had three different dreams relating to Catholicism... the first one I dreamed people in a Catholic church were singing "pagan faith, pagan faith." In the second, Mother Mary came to me and promised to help me. And in the third, I was choosing a rosary as I mentioned.

Holy water, cakes and ale, veneration of female divinity, and the use of magical tools like the rosary and icons... these all feel very pagan and comforting to me. Has anyone else here had experiences like this?

Edit: thanks everyone but I'm never gonna call myself Christopagan, I don't venerate Jesus at all. The whole reason I'm more comfortable with Catholic traditions is because it all feels less Christian and Jesus-focused. Don't get me wrong I think we can learn a lot from the story of Jesus, but I don't consider him a god like the Blessed Mother. Praying to him would be like trying to pay the chair instead of the carpenter.

Thank you to everyone who shared experiences, reading material and subreddits! You've given me a lot to think about, this is exactly what I was hoping for!