I'm contemplating s*icide everyday

(24,M) I feel no hope again.Broke , battling chronic autoimmune disease also which has led me to fail my campus studies.No sense of direction and it doesn't get better and I understand no one cares. The only reason I'm alive is because I don't want to have a failed S*icide because I don't want to turn into a cabbage who can't even execute it anymore. I have even thought of shooting range,where I could access a gun,Because by the gun it's almost sure nafika kwa baba.

Adios!