I need help❗ I'm slowly dying because of social anxiety and depression.😓

26 M , I don't how to start. I have extreme social anxiety and depression. After my graduation, i struggled to get a job because all the jobs demanded socialisation and I don't know how to socialise. I wasted years because of this but somehow I managed to get a remote job. It's been 3 years since I started this job but now I am about to loose this job. I have never been in a romantic relationship. I only have a few friends who use me for their own benefits. I overthink a lot. I think a lot about ending my life but i can't do that because of my mom. Even though I'm not in good terms with my mother, I can't leave her alone because she wouldnt be able to survive without me. When I was a child, she never let me go out of the house and constantly bodyshamed me. I think her actions deeply affected my poor personality and lack of ability to socialise. Yesterday, she asked me why I don't have a girlfriend. I wanted to tell at her but all did was crying. I'm tired of being a failure. I'm tired of being useless. I wanna fix myself. I wanna build a career, make friends, get into a relationship.. I wanna change everything. But the problem is that I don't know where to start. Is it possible to change my life ? 😓Or is it too late ? Is there anyone who has done this ? Should i visit a psychologist or psychiatrist ? I'm confused 😓. Is there any pill which will help me to forget everything and be a cool guy ? Sorry for the poorly constructed paragraph. I hope someone will help me. Please....