i hate my life and i want to end it

life is boring and i hate my life. i’m a young female, i do online school due to mental health and i just feel so lonely. my household is just so quiet and only time there is noise is arguing and fighting. my parents don’t talk to me. i have a bf but i also feel lonely in that he’s so busy with sports and we barely talk. i hate myself , i can’t even look in the mirror without wanting to end it. i been thinking about ending it and just giving up because my life has no meaning i have no friends no nothing. i been thinking about going to the psych ward to get help but they don’t do shitvthere. i just need help before i fully give up. i’m trying my hardest not to relapse right as im typing this