Birthing alone
I am married for 1 year and 3 months. Together a total for 2 years. My husband and I have not been getting along anymore and are on a verge of separation due to issues within our blended family. This is my second baby with my husband and the first experience I had was good but honestly, he has a lot of mental health issues as he is bipolar 2 and it impacted my birthing experiences. On the day of my induction, my husband told me he still had feelings for his ex wife causing me to cry uncontrollably. This was his first baby with someone else and I guess that brought up feelings but ensured me he loved me and has no regrets. He was crawling out of skin while in the hospital, argumentative with the staff, left after and before our daughter was born but was present for the birth. The moments I have with him during birth where he was supportive meant a lot. He then ambushed me with his parents coming into our hospital room after I gave birth and only asked me last minute if they could come when they were already there. His mother is very abusive toward me and we aren’t even on speaking terms anymore. They took my baby from me while they changed the blooded padding underneath me and had a “moment”. I had to tearfully ask for her back as they wheeled me away into the recovery room. I tried to communicate my feelings to my husband and he just got defensive over it all and accused me of robbing him of the experience of the birth of his first and only son. My suggestion to him was birthing alone and I realize that is hurtful to the other parent but I was so stressed the whole time with my daughter making sure he was comfortable that it took from my experience. I’m just trying to figure out what to do.
Tl;dr tough birthing experience with my husbands and my 1st baby. Contemplating if it’s best I birth alone this time to protect my mental health due to last times experience.