Feeling so down today

After a nice weekend he’s on chat sites as soon as I left for work. I feel terrible. He doesn’t know I can see his web traffic and I feel terrible for not telling him, but I am too scared to admit it now. It’s disgusting. He kissed me goodbye at 8:20am and says “I love you” and by the time I sat down at my desk at work at 8:40 he’d visited 5 sites already.

I’ve asked him if he’s been on chat sites or OF and he is adamant he would “never ever do that” but at least twice a week he’s on these sites while I’m at work. I’m making a spreadsheet of every visit for the next few months. I see this as cheating but I need to know if he actually conversing with these women. I’m thinking of setting up a mic because it’s eating me alive. If he is masturbating with them on camera I need to leave

I’m so hurt.