Found messages I didn’t wanna see

So you know that saying something like don’t go looking for something you don’t wanna find well it’s true.

Most recently he admitted to not being attracted to me sexually and marrying me because I was a good friend and cooked and cleaned and all that stuff.

He admitted to thinking of other women when with me sexually to get off…

Tonight I decided I wanted to know if he was being completely honest so I went through his messages with a friend that I normally avoid because I know he talks to him about things that are “private” they met in a PA support group.

I saw where he told him he “knows” he can do better than me. How he 110% thinks of other women when with me sexually. How he knows he can do better than me because he has done better than me. How he was more sexually attracted to a 50 year old woman that hit on him at the gas station the other morning than me.

I’m just so unsure. I told him that I want to separate my money and have my own account alone moving forward. I am not leaving yet but I think I might. I am just so unsure. 🫤