everyone’s already got somebody

I have this dream where i’ll find my long lost bestie that somehow also has no friends and is in the same circumstance as me lol.

You try to make friends but it doesn’t always feel right because everyone’s already got somebody, or a circle, whatever it is…and you just know you’ll never be as close to them as you’d like to be. People with friends always want to make new friends and i’m just like??? I haven’t had friends since high school and i’m 30 now lol

My spirit is also broken because these dudes keep giving me hope and it seems like there’ll be a promising relationship only for them to be like “sike i’m not ready for a relationship i’m just looking for something casual.” I’m starting to think it’s me now. They say that and then we stop talking and they’re suddenly in a relationship?? lmao

My heart hurts. just in general. someone make it stop.