Be present

That's what you need to think about: you're always impatient to get there. There.

No matter what it is—instead of enjoying every moment—you constantly find yourself wanting to “get rid” of these moments and look forward to those.

You just have to be here for once. Not just in rare, or not-as-oft happening circumstances (i.e., food, sex, sleep, dance, talking to people, family, etc), but finding something you can look forward to in each day that brings you legitimate joy and excitement. Something to look forward to.

Not punishing yourself by saying you deserve a good day ONLY when you do these or those things, and in a certain order…

You have too many conditions on being happy.

Just be. Let yourself be. Let yourself have as much joy as you can fathom.