How do you even begin to do this.

Every single day is a struggle and every single day I turn back to it. All I can think about when I’m high is how I can fix my life by prioritizing sobriety. All I can think about while I’m sober is how to get high, who to hang out with that has weed, where to go to get cheap albeit even shitty weed. I feel so alone, bored and have the worst cold sweats imaginable. Sleep was the only thing that gave me satisfaction, now I can’t even sleep without my mind racing and the cold sweats making me uncomfortable . I’m trapped in this vicious cycle I have no idea how to break away from.