How I did this to my body?

The night of the first day without smoking. I feel terrible. I used to smoke since I wake up and today I stopped after 12 years, All mondays I play soccer and, normally, I am pretty good at it.

Today I sucked. I didnt feel my body with energy. I was short of breath and sweating cold. I had to be the goalie almost all the game and we lost badly. All the game I was wishing it to finish.

I Bike back to my house crying. With tears in my eyes thinking how stupid I am of ruining my body so much. I came crying to my mommas house. A 30 years old addict facing the consequences of his actions. How crude. How lonely. How frustrating and sad is this addiction.

We are not alone. We can do this.