How to rebuild a testimony and have a personal relationship with God?
Hi, I’ve been lurking around here for a few weeks, and finally am trying to get the courage to ask for advice about my situation.
I’m 19F, born and raised in the church, but..for a long time now, I haven’t felt a super strong personal connection to it, or a strong testimony. There’s a lot of possible reasons for that, including my very introverted personality, and the fact I’ve moved around a lot the past few years, so I haven’t really been able to make a strong connection to any of my recent wards either. This last general conference though, I was trying very hard to listen to as much of it as I could, trying to feel something and to get something out of it..I’ve been praying a lot lately as well, mostly asking to feel calm and peace in my heart, and wanting to be comforted—And I’ve also asked to be able to feel the spirit as I started reading the Book Of Mormon over from the beginning, and I’ve been doing my best to listen and read along with at least 1 or 2 chapters a day, but..I’m not a hundred percent sure I’m actually doing the right things, or feeling any different. I’ve been considering trying to visit a YSA ward as well, to see if I might feel more when the subject of lessons and such is more personally relatable to me at this age..but I’m just so scared of walking in there by myself.
I guess I don’t fully know what I expect out of this post, but I would really appreciate any sort of advice, or even just kind words and sympathy. I see how strong the testimonies are from my peers, and even my siblings, and I just..want to feel that too, I guess. Even though I’m also scared. Thank you to anyone who’s bothered to read my ramblings, I truly appreciate it