Rant about my circumstances and clg

Hello people, Im going to rant here about everything that is going wrong in my life, read it if you have the time. We should start from finances, yes the lumber 1 thing that gives me a baba ji ka thulu in life left and right up and down inside out. NOT BLAMING MY FATHER he is an incredibly steadfast person with this very patience requiring business, i dont want to get into much details but its just that my dad does the work and then it takes ages to receive the payment. The whole of 2024 was incredibly hard for my family in regards of financial stability, at first it was fine, the oayment kept delaying my dad wasnt sure if the project he was working on will end up working out or not, i didnt really mind having to experience this struggle, struggle is a part of life ofc my a2 started and it was enough for me to be distracted from ghar kay problems but my clg decided it was enough of me enjoying my lifeso they decided to suspend me and And my sibling from college mind you its SENIOR YEAR when we were kicked out it was november, i had this vrazy dream of applying abroad since eighth grade and i was locked in to get it done anyhow, i knew we wouod be broke but somehow i j needed to get it work. But i got kicked out and then came distraction and copious amount of screentime negatively coping by TW sh. I struggle with sh bc eventually having no money gets to me, seeing my mom complain about my dad or cry about it affects me. And i cry but i dont want to cry so i sh. I find it very ridiculous that my college aka cedar the popular karachi college does not give a crap about the student’s mental health if they are broke. I am a high achiever and i expected my scholarship to increase in a2 but then somebody broke the news that thats a scam. i’m a part of student government too but even doing unpaid labor WHILE YOIRE KICKED OUT OF UR EDUCATIONAL INSTITUTE isnt appreciated. I kid you not my mental health is down the drain i think ab offing myself a lot and dong think tahts normal. I dont want to off thiugh dont worry i will not. Ok fine my outstanding due was like A LOT but bro they didnt even give me my damn a level result i was secretly told my result by an admin. My counselor couldnt help me bc they dont have my data. My parents just give me a notice of next week and I WEnt through countkess “next week”’s but it doesnt even come yaar. Honestly i am the biggest loser for even thinking that my institute aka cedar shouldve understand and let me for fujs sake attend the lectures i deserve as an unpaid laborer. They are a “for profit” institute after all. Fk the principal, the ceo all the adults working there. Thank you i think ill end my rant with this if you ended up reading all of it, tahts crazy i feel very much heard, genuinely appreciate you :))