Life as a loner--how do you do it?

When I was younger it didn't bother me as much. But as I'm getting older (21 now) I'm realizing that loneliness will make life extremely difficult, regardless of everything else I will have in life.

I'm in university now. It has been pretty difficult without friends--my grades dropping, happiness and mental health lowering day by day, everything feeling like a burden on my back. I know people go through much worse, and I'm grateful for having loving parents who can provide for me everyday. But apart from my parents and a few family members, I have no one else. I've tried reaching out to people, getting out of my comfort zone to hold conversations with new people, but nothing works. I'm always the outsider, the unwanted, the one with little to no importance.

I have lots of hobbies that bring me joy. However, human connection is something else. I can't imagine what life will become perhaps within the next 20-25 years, when I'll lose some of my loved ones. Loneliness is one of my greatest fears, and I can't imagine facing it.

I know there are other INFPs who feel the same way. How do you do it? Does it get better and do you get more used to it over time?